My Lovely Weekends

My last one:

crying and just crying, 48 hours of continuous crying; one crying is ended, another one is opened

I kept fighting with all my family, I kept yelling and crying, it was very bad just to spin in the same circle for the sake of nothing.. cause no one seems to understand you after all.

The feeling was awful, feeling that you mean nothing to yourself and you mean nothing to your community and surrounding people.

You just keep asking yourself: what did I did wrong? Where was my mistake? At the end you discover that Freedom and the Big Talk about your own choices is a Big Lie, no such freedom in our society especially for the girl, it is just a big lie, how bad is that!!!

My current weekend:

Work and work and work
Cleaning up all the mess my brothers made during the whole week...
Cleaning up all the everlasting dust (no matter how much did I clean up, just give the dust 30 seconds, and it will be back there I don't know how, it is confusing!!)

Putting the winter clothes back into their bags, getting out the summer clothes, keeping the in between clothes out considering the transitional weather ( summer with cold nights and vise versa)...

Making the ultimate decisions as in every year: which clothes to keep and which to throw away or give to some people they need more?? and hesitating in such decisions, I hate this stage of cleaning up!!!!

Washing the carpets and curtains; cleaning and cleaning and more endless cleaning, and not forgetting the fights and loud shouts in between:
you come and do this!!! who moved this one out?!!! why did you do that?!!!

How stupid you are !! I told u not to do it :)

And as a custom of each year, I keep putting my weather clothes back into their bags, hoping that the next year I would be in my own home , for almost 8 years I am doing the same routine work and nothing happened, I remind my self this time not to do it again :D

I was discussing buying a new mattress for my bed today with my brother, we were discussing their prices , I told him that I wouldn't mind buying an expensive one if its quality is OK...

he said: why would u do that? U won't be here for long time!! I laughed and told him about the weather clothes idea I had today he laughed too, considering the idea to be worth thinking of.

At the end, if i am gonna consider my weekends according to my Master Thesis work achievement, i am gonna give them "A Big ZERO", for that the ADSL net connection" and thanks for ORANGE company for their distinguished services" kept disconnected for these two weekend days.

I wasted most of my mobile credit calling the support ppl ; and finally, after switching the modem many times and turning the modem off and on many times too, the nice guy on the phone told me that: the support guys work only till 5:00 pm , and since this Sunday is off because of "Jordan Independence Day", I have to wait till Monday to get my connection back!! LooL

Tough by Monday my weekend would be ended and I have to get back to my Work in Amman, sorry dear Master Thesis I think you're gonna wait for sometime that only God knows when to get accomplished, Oh my God !! What weekends I have!!!